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Thankful Thursday

I'm thankful....

1. for all of my online friends....thank you for the words of encouragement and prayers when I need them the most!

2. that Caitlin made it safely to B'ham for a Beta convention...she will be home tomorrow and is really having a great time :)

3. that the sun is shining and I'm off today!

4. that I'm finally getting the kitchen retouched and should be done today with it.

5. for my family and friends!

When the rain stops and the sun shines you can really tell what needs to be done outside. Now it is too wet to do anything but maybe this weekend we can get a few things done outdoors. The sun sure feels good though! It even improved my mood a bit :)

Ben's grandma will be having her 91st birthday the first weekend in April. They always have a big get together. Last year they had it at the church and had it catered. Everyone was really disappointed in the menu or should we say lack of, including his grandma. Now since we are here and have a huge yard they all want to have it at our house so I'm trying to get the little things that we have been putting off done. Also have Caitlin's graduation/bday party in June and Mom coming down the end of May so between work and everyday things it should be interesting to see how much I get accomplished!

This is my week off...but we all know how that goes! I did work Monday, which put me at 8 days in a row and I'll be going in tomorrow. Not giving up my weekend! I'm thankful for the job and the extra hours.

Ben had another appointment at the VA this past week and I was able to go with him. All I can say is MEN! He has borderline high B/P and guess who hasn't been taking his meds?? So tomorrow on my way into work I am stopping by CVS and getting a B/P monitor so he or should I say me, will be taking it once a day and keeping track of it. He went in for his sinusitis issues. He has been having sinus problems ever since Desert Storm with those burning oil wells and other deployments. It's funny how after he is out they want to treat everything....kinda makes you wonder but at least he is getting things taken care of. Better late than never! Now that we have insurance I need to make an appt. to get a head to toe checkup.

I think the paint is drying in the kitchen so I need to touch up around the microwave. Have a great Thursday and Happy Spring tomorrow :)

Needing to get it out

Everyday is hard but I guess since we are coming up on the 3 year mark of losing Matthew it's getting harder. There are days I really do think I am losing it and you know I've been told that it will get easier but it doesn't. I'm still mad and I think a part of me always will be. I want to forgive...thinking that maybe if I do it will get easier...but I can't. It's just not fair. You can't run away from it, its there always. Somedays are easier than others.

Another week...random thoughts

I worked my 7 in a row and will be going in later this afternoon for my 8th day....yes I must be crazy!

It's been raining here most of the weekend...the type of rain that makes you want to curl back in bed and take a nap.

Things are starting to green up...that means mowing season is right around the corner :)

I have 2 weeks to get this house in order and organized. The first week of April is Ben's grandma's 91st birthday and the family always goes to her house to celebrate. Apparently this year they all want to come over here!

Ben has another appointment at the VA about his PTSD so we will see. We go tomorrow afternoon.

Twilight comes out on DVD saturday, woooo!

Yes feeling very random today...it's Monday :)

Thankful Thursday

I'm thankful...

1. for all the prayers and thoughts yesterday...thank you all!

2. that tomorrow is Friday and I don't have to work :)

3. for the sun and warmer weather

4. for my family

5. that we live in Alabama...beautiful place!

This was suppose to be my off week...I went in yesterday and will go into today working 2nd shift. I'm not answering my phone this weekend...we won't be home anyway. We are taking Caitlin to visit Judson college in Marion, AL. She has been accepted there and we are going to go check it out. We will be leaving tomorrow evening and stay in a hotel and then be at the college for most of the day Saturday. It's hard to say that my daughter will be in college this next year! It's a good school from what I hear...christian and all girls. Of course they have a military academy across the street,lol.

I'm tired...I know it has to do with all these hours I have been working. They are still so short. I haven't been sleeping well at night again. I really want to go back to school and get my RN but not sure how to swing that with work but somehow it will come together. It will be a few more months before I can do anything like that. I have some core classes to take and I can do that online.

I was summoned for Jury duty!! I have never been before and made the comment just the other day that I hadn't. Should have known better! But I was reading it and it states you have to have lived in your county for a year and I have only been here 9 months. I'll be calling to find out!

Have a great Thankful Thursday and thanks again for the wonderful comments yesterday :)

Funky mood

I've been in a funk of some sort this past week and can't seem to shake it. Poor Ben has been awesome and trying to pull me out. I'm slowly getting there. I don't know if the snow had anything to do with it. It was beautiful watching it fall at work over the weekend and knowing that my kids were outside playing in it. I guess I got homesick for Kansas, haven't done that in a while, and also knowing that Matthew would have LOVED it. I remember when we lived in TX and we had about an inch of snow. That was the first time Caitlin and Matthew ever seen it. Justin was 1 and don't remember it so this was his first snowfall. In TX we had to rake the snow off the cars hoods to have a snowball fight and I can still hear the laughter from the 2 of them. It's just hard....

Knowing that in another 2 months it will be 3 years is just unbelievable. The hurt never disappears.

Snow in March!

March certainly came in like a lion....2 days before we had tornado warnings and sirens going off. Had some damage a few miles from us but luckily nothing here. I was working at the time so we had to get all of the patients out into the halls....that was fun! Yesterday morning woke up to snow! Nothing like I had growing up in Kansas, but I hadn't seen snow in years and Justin never had. Of course I had to go to work and missed his reaction but did call and he was so excited :) Caitlin took some pics for me so I'll post when I get a chance. The drive to work was really pretty though. Justin and Caitlin had snowball fights throughout the day,lol. We ended up with about 3-4 inches here. At one point it was snowing so hard they closed all of the major roads and we all thought we were going to have to stay at the hospital for awhile after our shift ended but in the afternoon the sun came out and it stopped. We're suppose to get 70 degree weather later in the week....crazy!

I worked my 7 in a row so I'm suppose to have this week off but will be going in Wed and Thur. They are still short staffed and I did work two 12 hour shifts last week. No more doubles for me! They have all of these prn people but they want to pick and choose and when they get called to come in don't want too. Or they just don't show up!

The kids have off today because of the snow. The roads are bad this morning as well. Ben works off this morning so we will all be home :) I do have some things I want to get done around here but thinking today will be a free day for us all :)

I hope you all have a great Monday! Thanks to Julie for my beautiful background on here :)